Thank you for visiting! I have currently taken a step back from social media and blogging. But I did want to leave our blog posts about Goldie up here on the site, all other posts have been archived for now. Love Bethany

Goldie’s Service

This past Sunday evening we had a service to remember and honour our little Goldie Bloom. We decided to keep our service intimate with just our parents & siblings, all who were there the night that we said Goodbye to Goldie at the hospital.

I’ve always told David that if he passed away before me I would scatter his ashes at my favourite place on the beach so that I could go sit and stare into the water to be with him. It’s surreal to me that now I actually have that with my daughter. The night after Goldie was born when I laid in the hospital bed knowing that she might not make it I imagined this service. It ended up being exactly how it was in my mind and it was perfect.

We wanted the service to be simple, beautiful, golden, and natural – nothing forced or too planned.  David, Poppy, and I spent time earlier setting up our spot with little things that are reminders of her; gold balloons, gold shells, gold feathers, and white flowers. I love to throw parties mostly for the chance to make decorations and spend time on all of those pretty details. So being to do little things like spray paint feathers, and cut strips of white tulle for my little Goldie, the way I did for Poppy’s first birthday, made my mumma heart happy & also deeply ache.

Later when we returned to the beach we could see all our family gathered already at the spot we had set up. We walked the path towards them and my heart again felt that gaping hole, and my limbs & heart felt so weak the same way I did when when we held Goldie for the first & last time. The image I was living in of our family walking; David holding Poppy and me with the urn of Goldie’s ashes that I was pressing so tightly into my empty feeling chest, was an image so far from what I ever imagined for our family of 4. It feels incomplete.

We started the service with David’s brother Matt praying & speaking about Goldie, Heaven & God’s faithfulness. David and I then took Goldie’s ashes out into the ocean and watched the cloud of them billow and drift through the water. It was such a beautiful, painful, heartbreaking and yet joyful moment and an image I will forever remember. The ocean has always given me a strong feeling of God’s presence and this felt like a symbol of us releasing her body to God. Another experience of feeling a little bit closer to Heaven. And the thought of going home will forever be that much sweeter than it already was.

“David and Bethany, the inheritance you will receive in Jesus now includes a reunion with your daughter. The first day you’ll see Goldie healthy and the first time you’ll get to hear her speak. That’s not just a sentimental hope. That’s not an illusion to make us feel better. That’s a biblical picture. Goldie is right now safe with Jesus. Every molecule of her body like every other person who’s died covered in the grace of God will be collected by Him. Not one tiny particle of it will be lost to this ocean; and she will be put back together in a glorified state…a brand new, perfectly healthy, immortal body like none of us here can imagine.”

We continued to take our time worshiping, praying and taking flowers out to the water. I could have stayed there in the water for hours. Leaving that emotional moment and closeness to our baby girl was really difficult, but I love that I can come back to that spot everyday and feel like I’m spending time with Goldie.

After our beautiful and spiritual time at the beach we all went back to my parents house for a family dinner – toasting to Goldie, and sharing about the experience we all struggled through together.  We threw Goldie a party, and celebrated her life. We have had a lot of time mourning & grieving her loss but also wanted have the chance to feel and celebrate the joy we experienced with her and because of her. Being able to laugh and cry all together around the table made it such a special night that and we both wish we could relive again and again.

“David and Bethy most of all but the rest of us along with them have felt sorrow, have felt loss, and have felt the sting of death. These things are very real and we will not minimize them; they’ve felt strong and have seemed to have free reign. 

But nothing could be further from the truth than that.

One of the great ironies of the Christian life is that walking through the valley of the shadow of death is the very best place to catch a glimpse of our Shepherd. No where else can our eyes be more fully opened to the immensity of God’s power, His grace, and His love toward all of His children than there.”

-A part of Matt’s message from the service

*Again, thank you to M&Him for capturing such a special night to me so perfectly. I will forever cherish these photos and I’m so thankful I have them to remember this night that felt like a blur.

*We ask that you please comment with respect for our healing hearts. Thank you for all the loving comments and emails you have shared with David and I. We are so encouraged by your prayers and your stories of how Goldie’s life touched yours.


READ PART 1 OF GOLDIE’S STORY “WELCOME GOLDIE BLOOM” 
READ PART 2 OF GOLDIE’S STORY “GOLDIE BLOOM – 1 WEEK UPDATE”
read part 3 of Goldie’s story “saying goodbye to goldie”

99 Comments

  1. August 12, 2015 / 6:48 pm

    <3 we love you all so very deeply. This was the most beautiful.

  2. August 12, 2015 / 6:48 pm

    <3 we love you all so very deeply. This was the most beautiful.

  3. August 12, 2015 / 6:48 pm

    <3 we love you all so very deeply. This was the most beautiful.

  4. Holly
    August 12, 2015 / 7:02 pm

    This was so beautiful. You have let Goldie touch the lives and hearts of so many. Thank you for sharing.

  5. Claire
    August 12, 2015 / 7:17 pm

    It sounds and looks like a beautiful ceremony. What a blessing to know your precious girl is in the presence of our Savior, full of joy, despite the earthly loss and aching you feel while waiting here on earth for eternity with Him.

  6. Caitlin
    August 12, 2015 / 7:34 pm

    I don’t know you, but my heart aches for you and your family. While I read your last few beautifully written blogs I found moments of smiles and of tears – grace, joy, and beauty were so carefully intertwined during these sorrowful moments allowing God’s true love to shine within your family.

    Goldie’s life touched my soul and my heart.

    Sending prayers and love
    xoxo

  7. August 12, 2015 / 7:34 pm

    Thank you very much for sharing your story. It will encourage people who have to deal with loss and a painful experience. And this is the most beautiful thing you can do.
    I am not a religious person and I don’t want to have kids – but your story touched me, made me cry, made me think. It’s something I will always remember – though I never met you guys and probably never will. But I will think about you as strong wonderful people with a fascinating life perspective I respect a lot. So thanks for sharing, again. You did a great thing. I wish all the best to you, your family and friends.

  8. August 12, 2015 / 7:34 pm

    Thank you very much for sharing your story. It will encourage people who have to deal with loss and a painful experience. And this is the most beautiful thing you can do.
    I am not a religious person and I don’t want to have kids – but your story touched me, made me cry, made me think. It’s something I will always remember – though I never met you guys and probably never will. But I will think about you as strong wonderful people with a fascinating life perspective I respect a lot. So thanks for sharing, again. You did a great thing. I wish all the best to you, your family and friends.

  9. August 12, 2015 / 7:34 pm

    Thank you very much for sharing your story. It will encourage people who have to deal with loss and a painful experience. And this is the most beautiful thing you can do.
    I am not a religious person and I don’t want to have kids – but your story touched me, made me cry, made me think. It’s something I will always remember – though I never met you guys and probably never will. But I will think about you as strong wonderful people with a fascinating life perspective I respect a lot. So thanks for sharing, again. You did a great thing. I wish all the best to you, your family and friends.

  10. Ursula
    August 12, 2015 / 7:41 pm

    Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us. Goldie’s service looks beautiful and your unwavering devotion to Him is inspiring. I pray that you and your family continue to feel the outpouring of love from near and far and that peace will soon surround your hearts.

  11. Morgan
    August 12, 2015 / 7:50 pm

    While just finding out Im pregnant with my second child your story makes it very clear to not take things for granted to trust in God in ALL things and what is truly important in life.
    I love you guys and will continue to pray for you and your family.
    Goldie’s ceremony was so beautiful and what a blessing to know your precious girl is now in the presence of gods grace and love.

  12. August 12, 2015 / 8:05 pm

    It feels funny to say it because I don’t know you at all (beyond instagram and this blog) but I have so much love for your family! I hope to share a bit of encouragement- There was a time of really deep sadness for me last fall and the Lord used these verses from the very familiar passage in Isaiah 61 to speak to me, so clearly- "[He has come to provide] the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness." Not only does He remove that awful, empty, weak, aching heaviness from our lives but He replaces it with a garment of radiant praise that shines His goodness for all to see! Already you, David, and Poppy are such lighthouses for Jesus to a world that simply cannot understand how anyone could have faith and hope in the midst of and after such tragedy. Love you all <3

  13. August 12, 2015 / 8:05 pm

    It feels funny to say it because I don’t know you at all (beyond instagram and this blog) but I have so much love for your family! I hope to share a bit of encouragement- There was a time of really deep sadness for me last fall and the Lord used these verses from the very familiar passage in Isaiah 61 to speak to me, so clearly- "[He has come to provide] the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness." Not only does He remove that awful, empty, weak, aching heaviness from our lives but He replaces it with a garment of radiant praise that shines His goodness for all to see! Already you, David, and Poppy are such lighthouses for Jesus to a world that simply cannot understand how anyone could have faith and hope in the midst of and after such tragedy. Love you all <3

  14. August 12, 2015 / 8:05 pm

    It feels funny to say it because I don’t know you at all (beyond instagram and this blog) but I have so much love for your family! I hope to share a bit of encouragement- There was a time of really deep sadness for me last fall and the Lord used these verses from the very familiar passage in Isaiah 61 to speak to me, so clearly- "[He has come to provide] the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness." Not only does He remove that awful, empty, weak, aching heaviness from our lives but He replaces it with a garment of radiant praise that shines His goodness for all to see! Already you, David, and Poppy are such lighthouses for Jesus to a world that simply cannot understand how anyone could have faith and hope in the midst of and after such tragedy. Love you all <3

  15. August 12, 2015 / 8:34 pm

    I sent my condolences….not knowing you but I am a sister in Christ…I have no idea of how it is to lose a baby. I feel your grief thru the words you have shared….I will be praying for your family as you grieve the loss of of little Goldie…she has touch thworld with short life. May the God of all comfort….comfort you all.

  16. August 12, 2015 / 8:34 pm

    I sent my condolences….not knowing you but I am a sister in Christ…I have no idea of how it is to lose a baby. I feel your grief thru the words you have shared….I will be praying for your family as you grieve the loss of of little Goldie…she has touch thworld with short life. May the God of all comfort….comfort you all.

  17. August 12, 2015 / 8:34 pm

    I sent my condolences….not knowing you but I am a sister in Christ…I have no idea of how it is to lose a baby. I feel your grief thru the words you have shared….I will be praying for your family as you grieve the loss of of little Goldie…she has touch thworld with short life. May the God of all comfort….comfort you all.

  18. August 12, 2015 / 8:59 pm

    this is just the most tender, special thing. thank you for sharing your story of your sweet little family and precious little goldie!

  19. August 12, 2015 / 8:59 pm

    this is just the most tender, special thing. thank you for sharing your story of your sweet little family and precious little goldie!

  20. August 12, 2015 / 8:59 pm

    this is just the most tender, special thing. thank you for sharing your story of your sweet little family and precious little goldie!

  21. Janet Goodall
    August 12, 2015 / 9:23 pm

    Thank you for sharing from your heart. As I read through and looked at the pictures couldn’t help but cry however, know that even in sadness there is joy. God is collecting all our tears for little Goldie and I am so thankful that she is now resting in the arms of Jesus. So thankful you have family that surrounds you with so much love and understanding. Our God is a faithful God and even though tears will still come He is surrounding you all with His love to help you through your time of grieving.

    Much love, Al & Janet Goodall (Toronto, Ontario)

  22. August 12, 2015 / 9:33 pm

    I love you my Darling. And both of your Darlings, and always will. xoxoxo

  23. August 12, 2015 / 9:33 pm

    I love you my Darling. And both of your Darlings, and always will. xoxoxo

  24. August 12, 2015 / 9:33 pm

    I love you my Darling. And both of your Darlings, and always will. xoxoxo

  25. Leslie MIller Pearson
    August 12, 2015 / 10:36 pm

    What a beautiful service to give honour to and remember a precious life. I am so proud of you and David. With incredible faith, love and grace you have journeyed through this heartbreaking time. You are loved by so many. We will continue to pray for you both and your sweet families. Sending much love and hugs. Leslie xo

  26. August 12, 2015 / 11:10 pm

    What a beautiful service. From the bottom of my heart, I’m so sorry for your loss and pray that the God of all comfort would fill you daily with hope and peace. Love to you and your husband and your precious Poppy and the special memory of your beautiful Goldie.

  27. August 12, 2015 / 11:10 pm

    What a beautiful service. From the bottom of my heart, I’m so sorry for your loss and pray that the God of all comfort would fill you daily with hope and peace. Love to you and your husband and your precious Poppy and the special memory of your beautiful Goldie.

  28. August 12, 2015 / 11:10 pm

    What a beautiful service. From the bottom of my heart, I’m so sorry for your loss and pray that the God of all comfort would fill you daily with hope and peace. Love to you and your husband and your precious Poppy and the special memory of your beautiful Goldie.

  29. August 12, 2015 / 11:15 pm

    Looks very beautiful, thank you for sharing your story!
    Even though I don’t know you and your family, this really touched my heart.
    I am really sorry for your loss.
    Sending prayers and love from Germany.
    xoxo Lena

  30. August 12, 2015 / 11:15 pm

    Looks very beautiful, thank you for sharing your story!
    Even though I don’t know you and your family, this really touched my heart.
    I am really sorry for your loss.
    Sending prayers and love from Germany.
    xoxo Lena

  31. August 12, 2015 / 11:15 pm

    Looks very beautiful, thank you for sharing your story!
    Even though I don’t know you and your family, this really touched my heart.
    I am really sorry for your loss.
    Sending prayers and love from Germany.
    xoxo Lena

  32. August 12, 2015 / 11:22 pm

    Such a beautiful way to honour Goldie xoxo

  33. August 12, 2015 / 11:22 pm

    Such a beautiful way to honour Goldie xoxo

  34. August 12, 2015 / 11:22 pm

    Such a beautiful way to honour Goldie xoxo

  35. Kate
    August 12, 2015 / 11:51 pm

    Such a beautiful way to celebrate your little one. I can’t read your posts without getting a tear in my eye. Someone all the way over in Australia is thinking of you right now and wishing you all the best from the bottom of their heart, Kate xx

  36. Lauren
    August 13, 2015 / 2:50 am

    Your family’s story has touched my heart. I pray abundant blessings upon your family. And I thank God that in heaven you will meet up with your Goldie again.

  37. Michelle
    August 13, 2015 / 3:03 am

    We all walk through our battles and heartache but you two have the gift of being vulnerable in a time where most people shut down and shut people out. Your journey touches my heart: What an amazing testimony of Gods hand over your lives! Matt said it perfectly; "a biblical picture" something to hold onto and look forward to. I too have a perfect and whole daughter waiting for me in heaven too:)

  38. August 13, 2015 / 3:33 am

    I have such a deep love for you and your family, I’ve never wept for or felt such deep emotions for someone I’ve never met in my life. You all have weighed heavy on my heart and mind for the past few weeks and keep you in my prayers often. Goldie’s life and your family has brought so much revelation of who Jesus is to me and I can never thank you enough for sharing. I pray for immense peace and love as your broken hearts begin this lifelong healing process. Goldie has such a mighty legacy she has left behind for such a short life that will go on for years to come

  39. August 13, 2015 / 3:33 am

    I have such a deep love for you and your family, I’ve never wept for or felt such deep emotions for someone I’ve never met in my life. You all have weighed heavy on my heart and mind for the past few weeks and keep you in my prayers often. Goldie’s life and your family has brought so much revelation of who Jesus is to me and I can never thank you enough for sharing. I pray for immense peace and love as your broken hearts begin this lifelong healing process. Goldie has such a mighty legacy she has left behind for such a short life that will go on for years to come

  40. August 13, 2015 / 3:33 am

    I have such a deep love for you and your family, I’ve never wept for or felt such deep emotions for someone I’ve never met in my life. You all have weighed heavy on my heart and mind for the past few weeks and keep you in my prayers often. Goldie’s life and your family has brought so much revelation of who Jesus is to me and I can never thank you enough for sharing. I pray for immense peace and love as your broken hearts begin this lifelong healing process. Goldie has such a mighty legacy she has left behind for such a short life that will go on for years to come

  41. Lisa Frers
    August 13, 2015 / 4:26 am

    Beautiful my friends. Xo

  42. August 13, 2015 / 5:14 am

    Tears flow and my chest tight as I read about your sweet baby Goldie tonight. As a mother myself, I cannot imagine…You celebrated and honoured your daughter beautifully. I love that it was a full on and full out with decorations, cake and all. Looks like you have a very tight knit family that will always be there to support you. My prayers are lifting you up tonight.
    -Stacey
    Langley, BC

  43. August 13, 2015 / 5:14 am

    Tears flow and my chest tight as I read about your sweet baby Goldie tonight. As a mother myself, I cannot imagine…You celebrated and honoured your daughter beautifully. I love that it was a full on and full out with decorations, cake and all. Looks like you have a very tight knit family that will always be there to support you. My prayers are lifting you up tonight.
    -Stacey
    Langley, BC

  44. August 13, 2015 / 5:14 am

    Tears flow and my chest tight as I read about your sweet baby Goldie tonight. As a mother myself, I cannot imagine…You celebrated and honoured your daughter beautifully. I love that it was a full on and full out with decorations, cake and all. Looks like you have a very tight knit family that will always be there to support you. My prayers are lifting you up tonight.
    -Stacey
    Langley, BC

  45. August 13, 2015 / 5:33 am

    What a beautiful service! Thank you for sharing this hard time with the public. I am deeply saddened by the loss of your precious Goldie Bloom. I pray God continue to give you the strength and the grace you need to get through this tough time in your lives. My heart goes out to you and your family.
    with love,
    Dominique from writingmotherfashionista.com

  46. August 13, 2015 / 5:33 am

    What a beautiful service! Thank you for sharing this hard time with the public. I am deeply saddened by the loss of your precious Goldie Bloom. I pray God continue to give you the strength and the grace you need to get through this tough time in your lives. My heart goes out to you and your family.
    with love,
    Dominique from writingmotherfashionista.com

  47. August 13, 2015 / 5:33 am

    What a beautiful service! Thank you for sharing this hard time with the public. I am deeply saddened by the loss of your precious Goldie Bloom. I pray God continue to give you the strength and the grace you need to get through this tough time in your lives. My heart goes out to you and your family.
    with love,
    Dominique from writingmotherfashionista.com

  48. Connie Eberhardt
    August 13, 2015 / 5:53 am

    What a moving tribute to little Goldie! Tears are trickling down my cheeks and my neck… How fitting that her funeral should be with the people who loved her the most, Matt did an excellent job with the service!

  49. August 13, 2015 / 6:33 am

    Bethany, you and your precious family are in our prayers. What a beautiful way to celebrate Goldie’s life.

  50. August 13, 2015 / 6:33 am

    Bethany, you and your precious family are in our prayers. What a beautiful way to celebrate Goldie’s life.

  51. August 13, 2015 / 6:33 am

    Bethany, you and your precious family are in our prayers. What a beautiful way to celebrate Goldie’s life.

  52. Mark Clark
    August 13, 2015 / 6:46 am

    This is so beautiful Bethany and David. And like Matt said the hope in Jesus about Goldie is not sentimental but is a sure thing and something we really can hold on to. Love you guys. You have journeyed so strong through this. Honestly you guys have inspired.

  53. August 13, 2015 / 1:47 pm

    Our only hope in this evil world is Jesus! I pray for your daily and ask God to heal your heart. God Bless You,

    Kim

  54. August 13, 2015 / 1:47 pm

    Our only hope in this evil world is Jesus! I pray for your daily and ask God to heal your heart. God Bless You,

    Kim

  55. August 13, 2015 / 1:47 pm

    Our only hope in this evil world is Jesus! I pray for your daily and ask God to heal your heart. God Bless You,

    Kim

  56. August 13, 2015 / 4:11 pm

    I feel honoured to be able to watch you and your family go through such a difficult heartbreak. Every time I come to your blog and read about your healing process I can’t help but weep. You have dealt with an unbearable situation with such dignity and grace. It seems that you and your family are taking your time to process this big loss in such a healthy way and that is something to be admired. Although I’m sure this will be a scar on your hearts forever you will shine again much brighter when you’ve healed. I wish you nothing but the best and feel so much for you and your family.

  57. August 13, 2015 / 4:11 pm

    I feel honoured to be able to watch you and your family go through such a difficult heartbreak. Every time I come to your blog and read about your healing process I can’t help but weep. You have dealt with an unbearable situation with such dignity and grace. It seems that you and your family are taking your time to process this big loss in such a healthy way and that is something to be admired. Although I’m sure this will be a scar on your hearts forever you will shine again much brighter when you’ve healed. I wish you nothing but the best and feel so much for you and your family.

  58. August 13, 2015 / 4:11 pm

    I feel honoured to be able to watch you and your family go through such a difficult heartbreak. Every time I come to your blog and read about your healing process I can’t help but weep. You have dealt with an unbearable situation with such dignity and grace. It seems that you and your family are taking your time to process this big loss in such a healthy way and that is something to be admired. Although I’m sure this will be a scar on your hearts forever you will shine again much brighter when you’ve healed. I wish you nothing but the best and feel so much for you and your family.

  59. August 13, 2015 / 8:47 pm

    There are no words. I’m so sorry. I can only imagine how sweet that reunion will be between Goldie and your family. She seemed too perfect to have to endure the trials of this world. I know, based on my faith, that Heavenly Father has a designed plan and she is being taken care of. None of this lessens the pain you will feel or have felt. I’m so glad you have your faith to hold tight on during this trail in your life. I’m so happy to see that you guys are comforted through words you have written. I do not know you personally but as a fellow mother I wanted you to know you have support from all over.

    Sarah
    @skwebb

  60. August 13, 2015 / 8:47 pm

    There are no words. I’m so sorry. I can only imagine how sweet that reunion will be between Goldie and your family. She seemed too perfect to have to endure the trials of this world. I know, based on my faith, that Heavenly Father has a designed plan and she is being taken care of. None of this lessens the pain you will feel or have felt. I’m so glad you have your faith to hold tight on during this trail in your life. I’m so happy to see that you guys are comforted through words you have written. I do not know you personally but as a fellow mother I wanted you to know you have support from all over.

    Sarah
    @skwebb

  61. August 13, 2015 / 8:47 pm

    There are no words. I’m so sorry. I can only imagine how sweet that reunion will be between Goldie and your family. She seemed too perfect to have to endure the trials of this world. I know, based on my faith, that Heavenly Father has a designed plan and she is being taken care of. None of this lessens the pain you will feel or have felt. I’m so glad you have your faith to hold tight on during this trail in your life. I’m so happy to see that you guys are comforted through words you have written. I do not know you personally but as a fellow mother I wanted you to know you have support from all over.

    Sarah
    @skwebb

  62. August 14, 2015 / 5:51 am

    Sending you so many prayers for this most difficult time. I can’t imagine your loss and pray that you find comfort with your beautiful family. This service is such a beautiful way to celebrate little Goldie Bloom’s life.

  63. August 14, 2015 / 5:51 am

    Sending you so many prayers for this most difficult time. I can’t imagine your loss and pray that you find comfort with your beautiful family. This service is such a beautiful way to celebrate little Goldie Bloom’s life.

  64. August 14, 2015 / 5:51 am

    Sending you so many prayers for this most difficult time. I can’t imagine your loss and pray that you find comfort with your beautiful family. This service is such a beautiful way to celebrate little Goldie Bloom’s life.

  65. August 14, 2015 / 7:56 am

    I love that you can not only see the sadness, but also the joy and peace emulating from your family. So beautiful.

  66. Carolyn Murdock
    August 14, 2015 / 6:39 pm

    He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart, he gently leads those that have young
    Isaiah 40:11
    Thank you for sharing your heart.

  67. August 16, 2015 / 5:01 am

    Your little Goldie’s story touched my heart and renewed my spirit. I pray that you and your family will continue to show and inspire others by your amazing faith. Thank you for sharing your story. Prayers and love from Texas.

  68. August 16, 2015 / 5:01 am

    Your little Goldie’s story touched my heart and renewed my spirit. I pray that you and your family will continue to show and inspire others by your amazing faith. Thank you for sharing your story. Prayers and love from Texas.

  69. August 16, 2015 / 5:01 am

    Your little Goldie’s story touched my heart and renewed my spirit. I pray that you and your family will continue to show and inspire others by your amazing faith. Thank you for sharing your story. Prayers and love from Texas.

  70. August 17, 2015 / 6:45 am

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers. What a wonderful moment it will be when you all get to heaven and see your Savior and your daughter Goldie. What a day that will be.

  71. August 17, 2015 / 6:45 am

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers. What a wonderful moment it will be when you all get to heaven and see your Savior and your daughter Goldie. What a day that will be.

  72. August 17, 2015 / 6:45 am

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers. What a wonderful moment it will be when you all get to heaven and see your Savior and your daughter Goldie. What a day that will be.

  73. August 17, 2015 / 6:18 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I was shocked to just find out on Instagram that your baby girl has passed away and came here to catch up on your blog. The last post I remember seeing was you in the hospital saying baby girl wanted to come early and I assumed they had stopped contractions and didn’t see any posts after that. And all this time you have been going through this….I can’t imagine such incredible loss and I will say prayers for your little family to heal and be able to move on. My faith is strengthened by the faith I see in you guys and all the beautiful words you’re written about your Goldie. xoxo

  74. August 18, 2015 / 7:02 am

    Thank you for sharing this story, it has added to my testimony of our loving Heavenly Father. I pray that when you miss her, you’ll be reminded of his love. I know that without a doubt you and your Goldie will be reunited with each other. What a beautiful promise. You’re in my prayers.

  75. August 18, 2015 / 7:02 am

    Thank you for sharing this story, it has added to my testimony of our loving Heavenly Father. I pray that when you miss her, you’ll be reminded of his love. I know that without a doubt you and your Goldie will be reunited with each other. What a beautiful promise. You’re in my prayers.

  76. August 18, 2015 / 7:02 am

    Thank you for sharing this story, it has added to my testimony of our loving Heavenly Father. I pray that when you miss her, you’ll be reminded of his love. I know that without a doubt you and your Goldie will be reunited with each other. What a beautiful promise. You’re in my prayers.

  77. C.Li
    August 21, 2015 / 5:57 am

    Goldie has touched many of our lives at the hospital where she’s born. It was a privilege to be able to care for Goldie and your family and to get to know her little body in the short amount of time she spent with us. Thank you for sharing your story and your experience throughout this journey, I admire greatly the courage and strength your family has shown in difficult times like this. It was such a beautiful thing to witness the extent of love and care you as parents and your family have given Goldie. You reminded me why I love my job as a NICU nurse so much.

    I will forever always remember Goldie and your family. Thank you for trusting us with Goldie’s care and for allowing us to be there for your precious one during those vulnerable times.

    CL

  78. August 21, 2015 / 7:55 pm

    Tears are stinging my eyes, and my throat is very tight. I am so in awe of the grace you possess while writing these posts. Even though I don’t know you personally beyond Instagram, and although I am not a religious gal, I will pray for you. I will pray for a healing golden cloud to surround you and your family, and hope that the cloud can lift any sort of haze that you might encounter. Thank you for sharing as you did. I can’t imagine the strength that you must have, and I only home to embody something of that nature when I am to face any kind of tough situation in the future. Sending love and light to your family, from one touched follower you have.

  79. August 21, 2015 / 7:55 pm

    Tears are stinging my eyes, and my throat is very tight. I am so in awe of the grace you possess while writing these posts. Even though I don’t know you personally beyond Instagram, and although I am not a religious gal, I will pray for you. I will pray for a healing golden cloud to surround you and your family, and hope that the cloud can lift any sort of haze that you might encounter. Thank you for sharing as you did. I can’t imagine the strength that you must have, and I only home to embody something of that nature when I am to face any kind of tough situation in the future. Sending love and light to your family, from one touched follower you have.

  80. August 21, 2015 / 7:55 pm

    Tears are stinging my eyes, and my throat is very tight. I am so in awe of the grace you possess while writing these posts. Even though I don’t know you personally beyond Instagram, and although I am not a religious gal, I will pray for you. I will pray for a healing golden cloud to surround you and your family, and hope that the cloud can lift any sort of haze that you might encounter. Thank you for sharing as you did. I can’t imagine the strength that you must have, and I only home to embody something of that nature when I am to face any kind of tough situation in the future. Sending love and light to your family, from one touched follower you have.

  81. Jenna Street
    August 25, 2015 / 2:54 pm

    Thank you for being so willing to share your story. Even though I have never met you or your family, Goldie’s life has left a deep impression on my faith. Your incredible story and the love you have for Goldie reminds me of the love God has for each of His children. Thank you for that reminder and the encouragement you have given me. All my thoughts, prayers and love are with you and your family.

  82. August 26, 2015 / 2:22 am

    I love that you can go and visit that precious place whenever you want to feel close to little Goldie. Still praying for you.

  83. Leisa Michelle
    August 27, 2015 / 1:38 am

    What a beautiful service and an equally beautiful post. Like many others have said- I felt such a deep sadness when I learned of your Goldie on Insfagram and believe all of our mama hearts are somehow connected. Motherhood is the hardest and most rewarding job- whether our babies are here on earth or in Heaven. I think Goldie is hanging out with my niece, Aila and so many other little angels. Praying for you all and thank you for sharing your story!

    xx

    @leisa_michelle

  84. Trudy
    September 12, 2015 / 10:04 pm

    Such a sweet, beautiful way to remember your darling Goldie. Matt’s words were especially inspiring. xo

  85. Michelle Olthuis Moehle
    September 14, 2015 / 7:40 pm

    You are such a strong example to many people out there. You are handling this struggle so graciously & have allowed people to feel strong things in your journey. Thank you for sharing you precious angel with the world and allowing others to pray for you and your family. She has been a blessing to so many already and have touched more people’s life’s then most could only imagine.

  86. September 17, 2015 / 4:06 pm

    Sitting here at work trying my best to hold back the tears as I read your story, a story so beautifully written. My heart and prayers go out to your family. Thank you Heavenly Father for being our comfort in hard times, and for mending our broken hearts. What a beautiful day it will be when you can hold your sweet Goldie again.

    Xoxo,

  87. September 17, 2015 / 4:06 pm

    Sitting here at work trying my best to hold back the tears as I read your story, a story so beautifully written. My heart and prayers go out to your family. Thank you Heavenly Father for being our comfort in hard times, and for mending our broken hearts. What a beautiful day it will be when you can hold your sweet Goldie again.

    Xoxo,

  88. September 17, 2015 / 4:06 pm

    Sitting here at work trying my best to hold back the tears as I read your story, a story so beautifully written. My heart and prayers go out to your family. Thank you Heavenly Father for being our comfort in hard times, and for mending our broken hearts. What a beautiful day it will be when you can hold your sweet Goldie again.

    Xoxo,

  89. February 3, 2016 / 8:41 pm

    I have read your entire story now and it has touched me deeply and inspired me greatly. I just wanted to thank you for sharing it and for your courage and honesty. Also, this service was absolutely stunningly captured and I loved that you and your closest family chose to wear white. Just beyond touching. xo

  90. February 3, 2016 / 8:41 pm

    I have read your entire story now and it has touched me deeply and inspired me greatly. I just wanted to thank you for sharing it and for your courage and honesty. Also, this service was absolutely stunningly captured and I loved that you and your closest family chose to wear white. Just beyond touching. xo

  91. February 3, 2016 / 8:41 pm

    I have read your entire story now and it has touched me deeply and inspired me greatly. I just wanted to thank you for sharing it and for your courage and honesty. Also, this service was absolutely stunningly captured and I loved that you and your closest family chose to wear white. Just beyond touching. xo

  92. February 3, 2016 / 11:26 pm

    My heart aches with your family as you grow further from the time Goldie was born and went to her true home. I am a believer in Christ Jesus… And I cannot express how unbelievably thankful I am you shared your story. You two are suffering well, and I have no doubt in my mind Christ is near and he is going to leap for joy to reunite you four in heaven one day. Thank you for being Christ centered and giving all praise to God through the grief. It gives me hope and I am so blessed to see His faithfulness in your lives. We’ve never met, but I love you guys and will continue to pray for you. What a beautiful celebration of Goldies life. She is beautiful.

    -Theresa

  93. February 3, 2016 / 11:26 pm

    My heart aches with your family as you grow further from the time Goldie was born and went to her true home. I am a believer in Christ Jesus… And I cannot express how unbelievably thankful I am you shared your story. You two are suffering well, and I have no doubt in my mind Christ is near and he is going to leap for joy to reunite you four in heaven one day. Thank you for being Christ centered and giving all praise to God through the grief. It gives me hope and I am so blessed to see His faithfulness in your lives. We’ve never met, but I love you guys and will continue to pray for you. What a beautiful celebration of Goldies life. She is beautiful.

    -Theresa

  94. February 3, 2016 / 11:26 pm

    My heart aches with your family as you grow further from the time Goldie was born and went to her true home. I am a believer in Christ Jesus… And I cannot express how unbelievably thankful I am you shared your story. You two are suffering well, and I have no doubt in my mind Christ is near and he is going to leap for joy to reunite you four in heaven one day. Thank you for being Christ centered and giving all praise to God through the grief. It gives me hope and I am so blessed to see His faithfulness in your lives. We’ve never met, but I love you guys and will continue to pray for you. What a beautiful celebration of Goldies life. She is beautiful.

    -Theresa

  95. February 5, 2016 / 4:03 am

    I often come back and read through the story of your beautiful daughter. I am a fellow believer and also a bereaved mother and find so much strength, love and courage in your words, sharing in her life, her passing, and her memory. The grace and beauty you show through your walk in this is a great encouragement to me. Thank you.

  96. February 5, 2016 / 4:03 am

    I often come back and read through the story of your beautiful daughter. I am a fellow believer and also a bereaved mother and find so much strength, love and courage in your words, sharing in her life, her passing, and her memory. The grace and beauty you show through your walk in this is a great encouragement to me. Thank you.

  97. February 5, 2016 / 4:03 am

    I often come back and read through the story of your beautiful daughter. I am a fellow believer and also a bereaved mother and find so much strength, love and courage in your words, sharing in her life, her passing, and her memory. The grace and beauty you show through your walk in this is a great encouragement to me. Thank you.

  98. Scarlett
    July 10, 2016 / 10:19 pm

    your strength and faith is unbelievable, you were meant to be Goldies mummy I’m sitting here with tears running down my cheeks only feeling the smallest fraction of what your profound loss must feel like to you. Bless Goldie,, bless you all and Thankyou for sharing your journey , may you find peace in your days ahead xx

  99. Evelyn
    July 20, 2017 / 3:15 pm

    Goldie is truly experiencing the joys of heaven, with an uninterrupted vision of her eternal Father and sweet Jesus that brings with it unending and uninterrupted joy. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.